I recently purchased a Chrysler convertible that prompted this latest lesson.

I didn't really like the car but the dealer made me an offer that, in spite of my knowing better, was one that I couldn't refuse.

As is always the case, my intuition was right. I found out today, after owning the car for less than a month, that it is in need of $3,000. worth of engine and air-conditioning work which is more than I paid for the car in the first place. Do we wonder why it was such a great buy!?

In the course of an hour, after hearing the news, I watched myself get more and more tense. I felt my shoulders tighten, my attitude turn from bad to worse and my day start to be ruined. I felt like a victim and my body was holding all of the feelings.

Because I am so used to viewing my responses and then experiencing any feelings fully, this became quite an interesting "out of control" feeling to experience. It was a big one and I was in it.

Then, as the feelings started to dissolve, a song started running through my head. It had been played at a course that I did 18 years ago which was about going for what I wanted in my life.

Though it was my divorce I was facing back then, the song seemed nonetheless appropriate now. The song was by Ray Stevens and was called; "Be Your Own Best Friend." My higher self was giving me another message...

Make a move.
Take a step.
It might hurt.
It might help.
But it's your life.
You're the boss.
You've already stood the loss.
And a lifetime of pretending won't put Humpty-Dumpty back again.
Be your own best friend.
Be your own best friend.

Thanks to the prompting from my higher self, I remembered that whether feeling hopeless or helpless about a divorce, a car or whatever, the worst thing we can do is nothing.

I immediately turned around and called the newspaper to advertise my "mechanic's special" with all it's defects, at a bargain basement price.

My mood changed the minute I started speaking to the woman at the newspaper. I had taken action and I felt back in control. I had taken responsibility for my actions and no longer felt negative about the dealer or myself.

The situation had shifted and I was moving on with my day, which by the way, included the fire department breaking in the door of one of my apartments because the plumbing exploded and a restaurant on the first floor of my building was getting flooded, but I could handle that!

I had still lost money on the car. I had still made an incorrect choice by buying it in the first place, but in getting present to what was, instead of staying stuck in the emotions of right and wrong, I took back my power and the situation shifted into just another life lesson and another opportunity to remember that when my higher power/intuition speaks, I need to listen.

And now, I am writing to you. I am taking a situation that I was looking at as negative and making an effort to help someone else. The situation is turning more and more positive with each step I take.

So, where in your life could you take back your power? Where in your life could you do one small and simple action that would stop you from feeling like a victim and let you feel like you are back in control?

Make a move. Take a step. It might hurt. It might help. But it's your life. You're the boss. You've already stood the loss. And a lifetime of pretending won't put Humpty-Dumpty back again. Be your own best friend. Be your own best friend.

With love,
Vicky

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